“I thought,” (the Lady) said, “that I was carried in the will of Him I love, but now I see that I walk with it. I thought that the good things He sent me drew me into them as the waves lift the islands; but now I see that it is I who plunge into them with my own legs and arms, as when we go swimming … It is a delight with terror in it! One’s own self to be walking from one good to another, walking beside Him as Himself may walk, not even holding hands. How has He made me so separate from Himself? How did it enter His mind to conceive such a thing? The world is so much larger than I thought. I thought we went along paths—but it seems there are no paths. The going itself is the path.” ~ C.S. Lewis, Perelandra
This week as I skimmed the discussion topics at a favorite social networking site, I came across an all-too-familiar question: “Only One?”
The responses were a parade of the usual quandaries: Is there only “one” person out there for me? Or am I to choose from among many? What if I marry the wrong “one”? Will my true “one” be left alone? What if I’m single because my “one” married the wrong person? Will I be left alone? What if my spouse dies and I remarry? Which one was the real “one”?
Like most singles I know, I’ve wrestled with these questions, searching scripture and pondering its implications.
As many on the thread pointed out, these questions are rooted in our understanding of one of the greatest theological debates of Christian history: God’s sovereignty vs. human free will.
I’d like to suggest another option – God’s sovereignty working with human free will. This idea is hardly original to me, yet it seems often neglected in this discussion of God’s sovereignty over our matrimonial choices.
C.S. Lewis illustrates this idea beautifully in his Perelandra (see introductory quote). We know that all good things come from God, and like Lewis’ Lady, we see the blessings roll into our lives like waves hitting a beach.
When it comes to who we marry, we know that God must be involved. As Christians, we recognized that marriage is one of the most sanctifying institutions we will ever be a part of. God knows who best we need to help us grow closer to Him. God also knows who we need in order to serve Him best, who has the talents and skills to best be united with our own. And finally, we know that it is God who creates man, generation upon generation. He knows the children he intends us to have, and whose genes need to combine with ours for them to exist.
This list is far from exhaustive, but already it seems obvious that God must be involved. But at the same time, experience teaches us we have choice.
We make choices every day. We choose when we will get up and what we will eat for breakfast. Throughout the day, we make hundreds if not thousands of tiny decisions. As Christians, we ask for God’s wisdom as we make these, and we surrender to the guidance of the Holy Spirit. But even so, we often fail. Every day we make a wrong choice, and we sin. We know the responsibility is our own. The existence of sin necessitates the existence of choice.
For centuries theologians have done their best to make sense of this seeming paradox. God chooses? Yes. We choose? Of course.
As confusing as it seems to the human mind, scripture maintains this tension. I think there are few stories that exemplify this idea so well as that of Isaac and Rebekah, recounted in Genesis 24.
Now Abraham was old, well advanced in years. And the LORD had blessed Abraham in all things. And Abraham said to his servant, the oldest of his household, who had charge of all that he had, “Put your hand under my thigh, that I may make you swear by the LORD, the God of heaven and God of the earth, that you will not take a wife for my son from the daughters of the Canaanites, among whom I dwell, but will go to my country and to my kindred, and take a wife for my son Isaac.” The servant said to him, “Perhaps the woman may not be willing to follow me to this land. Must I then take your son back to the land from which you came?” Abraham said to him, “See to it that you do not take my son back there. The LORD, the God of heaven, who took me from my father’s house and from the land of my kindred, and who spoke to me and swore to me, ‘To your offspring I will give this land,’ he will send his angel before you, and you shall take a wife for my son from there. But if the woman is not willing to follow you, then you will be free from this oath of mine; only you must not take my son back there.” So the servant put his hand under the thigh of Abraham his master and swore to him concerning this matter. (Genesis 24:1-9 ESV)
In this passage, Abraham tells his servant that God’s angel will go before him, but if the woman “is not willing,” the servant will be released from the oath. He recognizes both the working of God as well as the choice of man.
Then the servant took ten of his master’s camels and departed, taking all sorts of choice gifts from his master; and he arose and went to Mesopotamia to the city of Nahor. And he made the camels kneel down outside the city by the well of water at the time of evening, the time when women go out to draw water. And he said, “O LORD, God of my master Abraham, please grant me success today and show steadfast love to my master Abraham. Behold, I am standing by the spring of water, and the daughters of the men of the city are coming out to draw water. Let the young woman to whom I shall say, ‘Please let down your jar that I may drink,’ and who shall say, ‘Drink, and I will water your camels’—let her be the one whom you have appointed for your servant Isaac. By this I shall know that you have shown steadfast love to my master.”
Before he had finished speaking, behold, Rebekah, who was born to Bethuel the son of Milcah, the wife of Nahor, Abraham’s brother, came out with her water jar on her shoulder. The young woman was very attractive in appearance, a maiden whom no man had known. She went down to the spring and filled her jar and came up. Then the servant ran to meet her and said, “Please give me a little water to drink from your jar.” She said, “Drink, my lord.” And she quickly let down her jar upon her hand and gave him a drink. When she had finished giving him a drink, she said, “I will draw water for your camels also, until they have finished drinking.” So she quickly emptied her jar into the trough and ran again to the well to draw water, and she drew for all his camels. The man gazed at her in silence to learn whether the LORD had prospered his journey or not. (Genesis 24:10-21 ESV)
This passage in particular highlights the role of God’s sovereignty. The servant recognizes that God has “appointed” a wife for Isaac. Still, while the servant sees clearly the sign he asked for, he waits to learn “whether the LORD had prospered his journey,” presumably because he has not yet received the confirmation of human will.
(Note: While we may not conclude with certainty from this passage that God appoints wives for all men who He wills to marry, we can see that at least sometimes God is involved in this choice.)
When the camels had finished drinking, the man took a gold ring weighing a half shekel, and two bracelets for her arms weighing ten gold shekels, and said, “Please tell me whose daughter you are. Is there room in your father’s house for us to spend the night?” She said to him, “I am the daughter of Bethuel the son of Milcah, whom she bore to Nahor.” She added, “We have plenty of both straw and fodder, and room to spend the night.” The man bowed his head and worshiped the LORD and said, “Blessed be the LORD, the God of my master Abraham, who has not forsaken his steadfast love and his faithfulness toward my master. As for me, the LORD has led me in the way to the house of my master’s kinsmen.” Then the young woman ran and told her mother’s household about these things.
Rebekah had a brother whose name was Laban. Laban ran out toward the man, to the spring. As soon as he saw the ring and the bracelets on his sister’s arms, and heard the words of Rebekah his sister, “Thus the man spoke to me,” he went to the man. And behold, he was standing by the camels at the spring. He said, “Come in, O blessed of the LORD. Why do you stand outside? For I have prepared the house and a place for the camels.” So the man came to the house and unharnessed the camels, and gave straw and fodder to the camels, and there was water to wash his feet and the feet of the men who were with him. Then food was set before him to eat. But he said, “I will not eat until I have said what I have to say.” He said, “Speak on.”
So he said, “I am Abraham’s servant. The LORD has greatly blessed my master, and he has become great. He has given him flocks and herds, silver and gold, male servants and female servants, camels and donkeys. And Sarah my master’s wife bore a son to my master when she was old, and to him he has given all that he has. My master made me swear, saying, ‘You shall not take a wife for my son from the daughters of the Canaanites, in whose land I dwell, but you shall go to my father’s house and to my clan and take a wife for my son.’ I said to my master, ‘Perhaps the woman will not follow me.’ But he said to me, ‘The LORD, before whom I have walked, will send his angel with you and prosper your way. You shall take a wife for my son from my clan and from my father’s house. Then you will be free from my oath, when you come to my clan. And if they will not give her to you, you will be free from my oath.’ (Genesis 24:22-41 ESV)
Again, we see that the servant’s oath may be dissolved if the woman chooses not to return with him.
“I came today to the spring and said, ‘O LORD, the God of my master Abraham, if now you are prospering the way that I go, behold, I am standing by the spring of water. Let the virgin who comes out to draw water, to whom I shall say, “Please give me a little water from your jar to drink,” and who will say to me, “Drink, and I will draw for your camels also,” let her be the woman whom the LORD has appointed for my master’s son.’
“Before I had finished speaking in my heart, behold, Rebekah came out with her water jar on her shoulder, and she went down to the spring and drew water. I said to her, ‘Please let me drink.’ She quickly let down her jar from her shoulder and said, ‘Drink, and I will give your camels drink also.’ So I drank, and she gave the camels drink also. Then I asked her, ‘Whose daughter are you?’ She said, ‘The daughter of Bethuel, Nahor’s son, whom Milcah bore to him.’ So I put the ring on her nose and the bracelets on her arms. Then I bowed my head and worshiped the LORD and blessed the LORD, the God of my master Abraham, who had led me by the right way to take the daughter of my master’s kinsman for his son. Now then, if you are going to show steadfast love and faithfulness to my master, tell me; and if not, tell me, that I may turn to the right hand or to the left.” (Genesis 24:42-49 ESV)
After revealing the sign God had given him, the servant still allows Laban a choice.
Then Laban and Bethuel answered and said, “The thing has come from the LORD; we cannot speak to you bad or good. Behold, Rebekah is before you; take her and go, and let her be the wife of your master’s son, as the LORD has spoken.”
When Abraham’s servant heard their words, he bowed himself to the earth before the LORD. And the servant brought out jewelry of silver and of gold, and garments, and gave them to Rebekah. He also gave to her brother and to her mother costly ornaments. And he and the men who were with him ate and drank, and they spent the night there. When they arose in the morning, he said, “Send me away to my master.” Her brother and her mother said, “Let the young woman remain with us a while, at least ten days; after that she may go.” But he said to them, “Do not delay me, since the LORD has prospered my way. Send me away that I may go to my master.” They said, “Let us call the young woman and ask her.”
And they called Rebekah and said to her, “Will you go with this man?” She said, “I will go.” (Genesis 24:50-58 ESV)
Rebekah has a choice. And she says yes.
It is clear from this story that the patriarchs believed in God’s sovereignty and human free will. It is indeed for us to choose. It is for us to plunge into our lives with our own legs and arms, swimming with all we have. But it is the Lord who is beside us, rolling towards us wave upon wave of good.
Solomon once said, “The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps” (Proverbs 16:9 ESV).
Indeed, it is a delight with terror in it.